My backstory - part 1

I haven't blogged much lately.  I've been pretty caught up in enjoying a ton of poker as well as unemployment fun in general.  I've mostly been posting on Twitter under my @BluffMeat account.  I wanted to start documenting this experience though and getting all of my thoughts down, because this is something I've been waiting to try for years.  Yes, I'm taking a shot at playing poker professionally.  Maybe it will only be for a few months, but I'm giving it a shot.

In case anyone else ever reads this blog (besides Johnny - hey bro whats up), here's what happened with me the last 10+ years with poker.

I fucking hated "playing cards" growing up.  I never got into it.  People would play at parties, or at holidays with the relatives, and I always avoided it.  I don't remember a ton of hold 'em being played but people played games like hearts.  I didn't play any poker at all until I moved out of Detroit and was in Denver for years.  I probably started playing when I was about 26, in 2003-2004.

I played a lot of sports throughout school because my parents put me into them, and I performed on the average to low side.  For some reason I didn't have the competitive drive that I do today.  That certainly hurt my performance in wrestling and other sports.  I simply didn't think strategically enough.  I really didn't care about winning the same way I do today.  I'd try on the physical side (which isn't my strong suit anyway) but never really got into caring about strategy at a deep level.

I graduated from Wayne State University in Detroit with a Computer Science degree and immediately moved out to Denver.  I had been working remote for a company there for the past year.  I had aspirations to do a ton of snowboarding in Denver, but the first time out I blew out my knee and haven't been back since.  That made me search for new hobbies.

Next came foosball.  That's a whole other story, but I got VERY into the fun underground foosball scene in Denver.  That's where my competitive nature started to really come out.  I got pretty decent at foosball and traveled around the country playing various tournaments for years.  I even met my future wife Beth at a foosball tournament right here in Las Vegas.  :-)  Foosball was a ton of fun and it ignited a competitive spark in me that carries through to today.

Some of my foosball buddies were playing online poker.  Through them I saw some of the Moneymaker WSOP stuff on TV, and I started playing very low stakes on PokerStars.  It was a ton of fun and I got REALLY into it.  I was still young and irresponsible and my job suffered at times because of it.  I would stay up ridiculously late and waking up for the job was rough.  I wasn't super successful online by any means, but that's where I learned the game.  I bought some poker books and I'd take long lunches and read every day.  The Theory of Poker and Hold 'Em for Advanced Players were my first two books.  Theory is still one of my favorite books (although I haven't read it in years).

It was really fun and exciting learning to play.  I'd drive up to Black Hawk in Colorado to play $2-$5 spread limit hold 'em and buying in for a rack of $100 seemed like the craziest and most exciting thing ever.

I also got into the underground poker scene in Denver a little bit.  The first live game I played was with a guy named Big City I knew from foosball.  He took me to some ghetto apartments and the person whose apartment I was in had an ankle bracelet on.  He killed someone in a DUI accident.  We played 5 handed games like Follow the Queen and other random shit.  I lost, and I was learning as I went.

Later I met a guy Jeremiah and we got together to play serious poker.  He introduced me to a guy named Arthur who was extremely poor but he took poker really seriously.  I remember going to his apartment and he had a set of chips made that were super fancy.  They had a crown embossed on each chip (King Arthur, get it).  I lost a huge (ie. I put maybe 15-20 bucks into it) Omaha hand because I didn't understand how Omaha worked.  I also remember playing a hand of Chicago and I wasn't sure if an ace counted as low or high.  I lost $60 the first time playing with that guy and it felt like I lost a ton.

One of my earliest and most satisfying poker successes was in that 3 handed home game.  One night Arthur came over to Jeremiah's house to play.  We were improving, and we simply crushed him.  We were no longer the fish in that game.  After that, he said he could keep playing but we would have to play at lower stakes.  We were maybe playing $1/$2 at the highest, or some kind of spread variation that was really small.  I think that's the last time I saw Arthur.  I still remember he would always say things when he got dealt shitty cards like "this isn't a hand, its a foot!"  Good guy.

At some point I met my future wife Beth.  One of the very first things we did was get her into poker.  I started by dealing out boards and had her identify the nut hand, 2nd nuts, and so on.  It's crazy how fast Beth learned to play really, because I had a year of experience ahead of her and a billion hours online.  She got up to speed quick and basically did better than me all through the time we played in Colorado.  She played retarded aggressive and would pull off absurd feats like winning $500 in a $2/$4 limit game.  Yeah, she would lose record amounts too, but she crushed limit.

At some point we started talking about the dream of moving to Vegas and giving it a shot.  Beth is an adventurer and she was into it.  And here I am today.

In my next blog I'll write about how my 2nd shot at professional poker is going so far.  Hint - results-wise, it's not good.  :-)  I'm staying positive though.

Twitter/Snapchat - follow me!

I resurrected my poker Twitter account. It's @BluffMeat, follow me! :)

Also just set up Snapchat, same deal. BluffMeat is my username. I have no clue how to use Snapchat effectively yet but I'll get some content up there.

Just putting this out there - your support is really going to make a big difference for me. I really appreciate the follows, comments, and even just the fact that you're looking at my updates every once in a while. Playing poker for a living has been my dream for 10+ years and I'm finally going to play hardcore for a couple months and see how it goes. This is a big deal for me and I love having you along for the ride. Even if I just end up getting a job in 2 months, it will be an amazing journey until then. :)

Thanks for the support!!!!

Out sick yesterday, Harrah's today

Yesterday I stayed home and didn't play at all. I've been battling a bad cold and have felt pretty rough. I got some DayQuil though which is really helping.

Yesterday although I didn't go out, I went through every 1/2 cash hand I've written down with Beth and we talked through them. It was really great and I came away with a few high level insights that I would not have been able to without having everything written down:

• I need to raise bigger preflop especially if more people have limped. I've been raising smaller based on a recommendation from a book I read, but I think I'm losing a lot of value with my best hands.
• I can tighten up preflop especially with really shitty hands in position like Axo and Kxo/Kxs. Those were again recommendations from the book (http://jonathanlittlepoker.com/smallcashcharts/) and while I like the idea of playing way looser on the button and cutoff, those hands are unnecessary and will just get me into trouble. Plus if I'm going to be bluffing more it doesn't hurt for me to have a tighter image.
• I'm trying to steal too many pots out of the blinds with marginal holdings after the flop.
• I should be more aggressive and straightforward with my big hands.

Today I'm feeling better and I'm waiting at Harrah's for a seat. My goal this week is just to get a bunch of hours under my belt at 1/2, just to get the rust off my game and get me more comfortable with playing some long sessions. I also think that qualifying for some freerolls is a responsible way to gamble so I'm trying to get my 12 hours in here for the weekly freeroll here. Game isn't moving much so maybe everyone else has that plan too. :)

Sick jump in readership upon announcement of my poker career!

In an unprecedented flurry of Internet traffic, Bluff Meat readership jumped 3x. Wow!

Yeah that's 3 people (maybe) - Johnny Dyzzl of course, Michael the Oregon software guy, and Raaa... mon? Raymond? I know that's not it. I always forget names. I'd feel awkward asking you what it was again here, so I'll write this instead. Sorry bro.

Grinded for about 5-6 hours earlier and I'm back at it tonight. Guy to my right tried to make this guy commit a federal crime by using his player card to claim a prize. Lmao that is a real bad beat - guy hits a jackpot and doesn't have ID so he doesn't get the money and he has to leave. Wait, he is getting the money tomorrow. Nice.

I'll put some more posts up here soon! Gl hf 

My philosophy on physical tells

I’m terrible at reading physical tells.  I’ve tried over and over to learn it and get in tune with this part of the game.  I’ve read Caro’s Book of Tells and watched the video a bunch of times as well as other books.  I’m just not getting it.

At this point, fuck it.  I don’t care and I don’t think I need to get good at that to dominate the game.  At least, I think that’s true for the limits I’m playing now and will play over the next couple years.

Here’s what I do with the whole physical tell game.  I think that if you are as bad at it as I am, this is a good way to neutralize that aspect of the game on both sides.

My behavior once I'm involved in a hand

Once I'm involved in a hand, I try to stay as silent and still as possible.  What I've done lately is pick a spot on the table and just stare at it.  Maybe I stare at the "V" in Venetian on the felt, a button on the automatic shuffler, or the table number.  I try to just zone out until it's my turn.  

This has a couple different benefits.  First, I'm looking in the direction of the flop but not actually seeing the flop itself.  I actually try to have my vision a little fuzzy if possible.  I can see face cards, a high number (8 through 10), a low number (ace - 3 - basically a lot of whitespace on the card).  But I can't tell exactly what the cards are or what the suits are.  This limits the amount of physical tells I'm giving off because I seriously don't know if I hit the flop or not.  

In fact, sometimes I'll bet out without truly seeing the flop.  For example, the other day I raised with 99.  I could see the flop was an ace and a high card (probably 9 or 10).  I either missed or crushed the flop.  It was heads up, so that additional information really wasn't going to help me.  I was planning on c-betting the flop regardless.  So why even take in that information and allow a physical tell to creep out?  If I know I'm betting anyway, getting that information can only hurt you.  So I just bet without that information.  In this case, I did flop a 9 and didn't get called, but I wouldn't have played it different if I saw the flop.

Second, I think it makes me look somewhat intimidating.  I'm not moving or saying anything.  People don't get any reactions out of me when they are moving their chips around or gesturing like they are going to call or fold, because I'm not paying attention.  It probably looks like I'm totally in the zone.  The reality is that I'm just waiting for my turn.

Another thing I'll do periodically is just randomly take more time on some decisions.  That way when I'm taking a lot of time, it's not always a critical decision.  If people are trying to read me and putting those instances together, it might mess them up. 

Trying to get called vs trying to get people to fold

I just don't play this game.  Period.  

It's the river and I have a monster, or I bluffed.  I put a big bet out and am waiting to see what happens.  Either way I'm staring at the flop waiting for my fate to be revealed.  I think that you probably can influence people one way or another by saying or doing specific things.  However, I don't know how to do that in a reliable way.  I think that peoples' minds have a way of creating their own insane realities that are way more out there than something I could put into their heads anyway.  So if people want to sit there and stare at me, talking themselves into calling or folding, I just let them do that.  No reason to add anything more into the equation.  

Paying attention to others

I literally don’t pay attention to what other people are doing, as far as their physical movements.  I try to block it out as much as possible.  If people say anything, I try not to take that into account at all either.  I’m basically playing online poker.

That's it.  Very simple.  Just don't pay attention and it doesn't affect you.

I realize this is not optimal.  However, I don't think poker is necessarily about doing everything optimally.  There's something to be said for finding a weakness in your game, and neutralizing it whether that is the optimal approach or not.  There are a lot of weaknesses in my game that I need to work on.  I'm prioritizing my use of physical tells very low at this point.  Maybe in the future I'll get to a point where winning and losing are separated by noticing the smallest twitch on an opponent's face, but I'm not there yet.  This approach allows me to avoid making emotional, bad decisions under the guise of "I KNOW he's bluffing".

More poker thoughts (written October 27)

I'm liking the idea of just talking general strategy and not always specific hands.  Here are a few more thoughts.

Playing tight

This can never be bad.  Think about it - when has anyone ever said "I really need to start playing KJo more - I'm just losing so much value".  Or "87s in middle position is such a dominating hand".  Never.  

Even hands like AJ, AQ in early position (or even facing a raise), JJ in early position - are these hands really that good?  What the hell do you do with JJ under the gun?  I'm playing it, but I just don't know that a raise even makes sense.

My point is that if you cut some of these hands out, especially when it just doesn't feel right, I think you are going to come out way ahead.  Even if you are breaking even with these overall, the mental stress you go through of mostly losing pots with these hands is huge.  And on the off chance where you flop T87 with your J9o, how often are you winning a monster pot?  It happens, but think about how often that happens vs how many times you flop a draw and miss, or flop a pair and have no idea where you are.  

Also think about this - yeah, you have KK, it's an amazing hand.  But on the flop or later in the hand, you're in a super tricky spot and don't know what to do.  You don't HAVE TO win money with that hand.  The other card could have easily been a 3, and if that happened, you wouldn't think twice about this hand.  Dwelling on what you have preflop is obviously a mistake.  If you feel that a hand is not going in the direction you want - people are WAY too interested in the hand, people are putting money in where they aren't just calling you, just fold!  Who cares.  Seriously folding after you put in $150 isn't going to hurt you that bad.  Calling off your whole stack will cost you $1000+, but even worse it will fuck you up mentally to where you think you can't even play well.  That's not a good spot to be in.

So for me, I'm just tightening up.  Last night this guy (probably a pro) was complaining that there was no action.  He says "what hands are you guys waiting for???" and I say "aces".  This guy is going to get pissed because the game isn't moving at the pace he wants, AND I'm conserving money.  These pros can't get my money if it's not in the pot.  

OK I guess I just had that one topic today.  Back to work, and maybe tonight I'm off to the poker tables!

Session report from Monday, October 26

Played some 2/5 last night at Venetian.  Had a few interesting hands.

Hand 1
Few people limp and I make it $20 with AQo.  3 callers and I'm in position.  Flop is AJT rainbow.  Checks to me, I bet 60.  Guy to my right calls.  Turn is a 3, no flush draw present.  He checks.  I figure I need to bet again because there are a lot of cards that might be scary.  I bet $100, he calls.  River is a 7.  We both check, he has AT.  Overall I'm fine with that hand.

Hand 2
I have JJ under the gun (always a good situation, not) and raise to $25.  The button calls.  He's a younger guy with headphones and appears to be pretty decent.  Playing a lot of pots and is somewhat aggressive.  We see the flop heads up and it's sick - AAJ.  I'm out of position and bet $35.  He calls.

I'm super stoked, but also a little afraid.  I think he probably has an ace.  Of course, any card that comes is scary because he might just have Axs and any card could make him a higher boat.  The turn is an 8.  I bet $100, he folds.

I'm happy with how I played this one too.  I went for the max value line assuming he had an ace.  Either he was floating me or it was an awesome fold, but I'm OK with it.  Also I have to protect myself a bit, I'm giving out pretty good reverse implied odds for him to hit his kicker.

Hand 3
Under the gun I limp with 88.  About 5 people see the flop, which is 663.  The blind bets $15 and I call.  We are now heads up.  The turn is a 4 and he checks.  I figure I probably have the best hand and a lot of river cards are scary, basically all of them are.  Actually I can't think of any that aren't.  Haha.  So I bet $35 and he calls.  River is a 2, so 45 gets there.  He checks, I check, he has K6.  No biggie.

Hand 4
I'm in the blind with Q5o and check.  We see the flop 5 ways.  Flop is K53 rainbow and it checks around.  Turn is a queen.  I bet 10, one guy calls, and now the next guy raises to 60.

I just fold.  Fuck it.  What can he have?  Here's what I figure he could have:
- AK (unlikely with no raise pre and no flop bet)
- KQ
- Flopped a set of 5s or 3s
- Lower 2 pair (53)
- K5 I guess, gross but it still beats me
- 46?  Seems unlikely because there was no flop bet

There's just nothing legitimate that I beat.  So fuck it, I fold.  I get it that 2 pair is super strong.  But if that guy is this excited about the hand, I'm just letting it go.  I think this was a great fold.

Hand 5
I have 2 red kings and raise to 20.  2 callers.  Flop is J73 with 2 diamonds.  First guy checks, I bet $30, next guy calls, first guy now check-raises to $90.

I'm thinking he could have a set, something like AJ, or a flush draw.  I raise to $200 with the intention of folding to another raise, and he calls.  We are now heads up.  I have about $700 or so behind.  Kind of an awkward amount, but my plan is to bet the turn big if a diamond doesn't hit.

Turn is a jack and he instantly bets 4 black chips.  I fold.  That's fine, I think I made a great raise on the flop and probably was ahead then.  I seriously doubt this guy is getting 3 bet on the flop and now leads out $400 with just a flush draw.  No fucking way.

Hand 6
I had been getting beaten down all night and was down about $400 at this point with $925 or so in front of me.  I have been folding a lot.  Had to fold to a reraise twice preflop, once with KQ where I opened to $20 and got raised to $60.  Then another time where a guy raised to $20, I reraise to $60 with AK, and the next guy makes it $240 and I fold.

I get KK again and raise to $20.  2 people call, and the same guy from Hand 5 now raises to $80 from the blinds.  Fuck yeah.  Well, hopefully fuck yeah.  Haha.  Folds back to me and I put out $225 in green.  He calls.  Awesome.  I feel like I'm most likely ahead right now because AA would probably raise.  Although not raising could be a great move.

Flop is perfect, TT7.  Not scary at all.  He checks and I bet $200.  He check-raises to $400, and I go all in.  He snap calls.  He flips up QQ.  I say "I've got you for now" and turn up the KK.  Turn ten, river ace, ship it mother fucker.  I went from being down $400 to being up about $600.

This was a great session.  I played well, folded a LOT when pressure was on me, stayed out of trouble, and capitalized when I had it.  That's what poker is all about, right?  I'm feeling so confident right now at the tables.  Can't wait for the next session.